Summer is gone and the cool autumn air has begun to usher in. My family and I had a wonderful Summer, we brought it in and really spent a lot of wonderful quality time together. We spent many days at the local pool soaking in the sun and we went on a lovely trip out to Big Sky Country (Montana), where we walked in the beauty of mother nature, fed and pet horses and soaked up the mountain air while swimming in natural hot springs. I got to go by myself (NO KIDS) to my old stomping grounds in California and see so many people and places that I love. I haven’t enjoyed summer this much since I was young and free of obligations.
I also created ALOT this summer….Some days it felt like my hands coulnd’t keep up with my mind fast enough. All the ideas that were pouring out of my heart space kept me feeling light and airy. This powerful journey of creativity and the alignment with my creative genius has carried over into the beginnings of fall and a new season of work is being birthed through my hands. Combining my love of both ceramics and fibers, I’ve begun making wall hangings, which have initially been for my own house, but am so very excited to begin making them custom for people’s homes and places of business. I feel so full and grateful for this new venture that is so rooted in a passion of mine for over 20 years now.
And with all the creative energy that has been manifesting from this body and the turning of a new season also comes the mind fuck that goes along with it.
Will people like what I am doing?
Am I worthy to be selling my work?
Is it ok to allow my heart to be open in this way for people to truly see me?
Am I safe?
The fear of being seen; of allowing my creative genius to have its own voice in the world. These old societal patterns have been resurfacing within this body like eggs from a short order cook. I feel like I have been riding the ways of my first, second and third chakra’s; simultaneously rooting myself in and owning my place in this world while exploring my creativity, confidence and worthiness. It’s been quite interesting to say the least; and as October truly sets in and the change in weather and turning of the leaves happens so too comes a period of refection, intuition and introspection. The veil is so very thin this time of year and always marks a period of significance for me and for many of us. Things always seem to transpire during this time that have great lasting impact and bring up some of the deepest shadows within us that are ready to heal. This fall is no different and certain things have come to light with in my family that has me being witness to and a part of a GREAT healing, which intern makes one question their own fate and the time that they have left here on this precious earth plane; and while my soul knows all is well and perfect and everything is unfolding as it should; my body hasn’t quite caught up to this.
The ability to create and to create for myself and others however; is what keeps my body in a state of homeostasis and has me feeling oddly at peace within this transition and healing. I am so grateful that almost a year ago I embarked on the journey to re-discover my friend genius. I am so thankful that I listened to my soul when it told me to make this a major priority in my life. My creative genius is helping to remind me on a daily basis of ALL that is beautiful, wonderful and loving in this world. It is what is helping me to see the silver lining and the healing that is taking place in even the darkest of spaces.
I am so very grateful.
