Its been a few days since I wrote my last blog. I haven’t stopped thinking about it, but I have stopped to rest for a minute. I wish I could say that this “rest” was voluntary, however once again I pushed my body too much and wound up with a migraine. You see my body has been experiencing migraines for almost 15 years now. Whats interesting about this is that with-out the migraines I don’t believe I would have found myself on the healing journey that I have been on. Honestly I would have probably drank and used drugs to push the emotional pain away, as this was a very viable option; but because of the chronic pain in my body, I could no longer ignore what was sitting not too far from the surface. Because of migraines and innately who I am, I have explored many types of meditation, learned how to fine tune my intuition and read energy. I hired a therapist that I love, worked on my nutrition, learned about the body through massage therapy, opened up to chiropractic care and physical therapy and the list goes on.
So Thanks? Migraines….
What I want to talk about today is….why with all of these tools am I still experiencing them? and what does re-discovering my genius have anything to do with it?
Well part of what I understand about energy is that when there is a block in our energetic system that sits long enough, it can inevitably create pain and illness in the body. I have experienced this in many ways and I have helped others to move energetic blocks within their systems to help open up the space for healing, but I get so frustrated, because here I am helping others and can’t for the life of me help myself. What keeps coming up for me and why I am choosing to explore this is that in order for our bodies, minds and soul’s to be in full synchronistic bliss. We need to be channeling our inner genius. Doing the things that feel good to our bodies, stimulate our minds and fuel the fire for our souls purpose. This is essentially what I believe is our genius. I don’t believe its necessarily one thing either. However I believe its taking the gifts that we have been given by the divine and using them, every single day. In some way shape or form. I believe its about clearing all the fear about being seen, being heard and being loved; so that we have a clear channel and life line to our genius.
Our genius is simply sitting there waiting patiently to be utilized and when we are not using our gifts, our bodies energy system grows stagnant and we eventually get sick or begin numbing out; or most likely both. But part of utilizing our genius is about showing up for our bodies, because it takes longer for our bodies to process what our soul already knows and it is so necessary to rest, for some reason this is where I get stuck. I go go go go go go and don’t stop till my body physically says no more.
So part of my journey in re-discovering my genius; is about showing up for myself completely. Allowing myself the rest mentally and physically that I need, but also learning how to not spin my wheels on things that don’t really matter. Thats also where our genius comes in, because if we are operating from alignment and we have a clear tap to our genius at all times and are utilizing this, than we also are honoring our energetics and our bodies nervous system and not doing stuff that wastes our time and brings us down into lower vibrational frequencies.
So I ask myself this; How have I not been showing up for myself? How have I not been creating the space for my genius to soar?
or better yet…
How have I been showing up and how do I keep doing more of that?
